"Hi, my name is Audrey, my mom talks to me a lot. Around here they call me 'the General' I like to make sure everyone's doing a good job taking care of the baby. They do it for me, you know, 'cause I can't, I don't have thumbs."
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Thankful? But I'm Nauseous AGAIN!
Being pregnant is something that I've longed for, and it's been for a while now. However, I think that I have finally come to the conclusion that I will never be one of those women who loves pregnancy. So many women have said that they love how they feel while they're pregnant, that the feel so beautiful and sexy, their hair and nails have never been stronger and prettier and that the thought that there is life in their body makes them feel elated.
This has not been my experience.
I have been sick. I have been nauseous, and I am still nauseous. I have been uncomfortable. I have been tired. I have been HUNGRY! And now I can't sleep because every time I fall asleep I have to go to the bathroom AGAIN.
Am I thankful? No, not all the time. Should I be? Absolutely... and all the time.
Philippians 4:4-6 says, "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Keeping an eternal perspective when I'm in week 19 of a pregnancy that has been plagued with challenges, including nausea that goes away long enough for me to have hope that it's gone, then comes back with a VENGEANCE, has been one of the most challenging things that I've ever had to do, and I'm the first one to admit that I'm not doing well with this.God has blessed me with a life that we prayed to receive for 2 years. I am thankful that the Lord has trusted me to take on the role of being someone's mother. What a huge responsibility, and honor, and what a huge challenge.
Pregnancy is preparing me to be a mom. The sleepless nights because I'm up every hour to go to the bathroom is annoying, but if that's all I have to worry about right now, I need to be thankful. Pregnancy is teaching me that giving new life does not come without pain and sacrifice.I'm thankful that Christ was willing to take on the challenges put in front of Him, to deal with pain and sacrifice to give me NEW life. What a blessing. For this I CAN be thankful.
This has not been my experience.
I have been sick. I have been nauseous, and I am still nauseous. I have been uncomfortable. I have been tired. I have been HUNGRY! And now I can't sleep because every time I fall asleep I have to go to the bathroom AGAIN.
Am I thankful? No, not all the time. Should I be? Absolutely... and all the time.
Philippians 4:4-6 says, "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Keeping an eternal perspective when I'm in week 19 of a pregnancy that has been plagued with challenges, including nausea that goes away long enough for me to have hope that it's gone, then comes back with a VENGEANCE, has been one of the most challenging things that I've ever had to do, and I'm the first one to admit that I'm not doing well with this.God has blessed me with a life that we prayed to receive for 2 years. I am thankful that the Lord has trusted me to take on the role of being someone's mother. What a huge responsibility, and honor, and what a huge challenge.
Pregnancy is preparing me to be a mom. The sleepless nights because I'm up every hour to go to the bathroom is annoying, but if that's all I have to worry about right now, I need to be thankful. Pregnancy is teaching me that giving new life does not come without pain and sacrifice.I'm thankful that Christ was willing to take on the challenges put in front of Him, to deal with pain and sacrifice to give me NEW life. What a blessing. For this I CAN be thankful.
Gestating
Being pregnant is like being in some sort of other alternate universe sometimes. Last night, I was doing just great and then all of a sudden I thought I was going to spend the rest of the night on the bathroom floor. People ask me all the time "how are you feeling?" and I honestly hesitate to tell them that I'm feeling good, because I know that at ANY minute at the blink of an eye I could be feeling HORRIBLE. Not that I'm not thankful, we've waited for this baby for a long time and tried for a long time to get pregnant. It's just that I was kind of under this impression that I would get pregnant and then have 9 months to "get ready." Boy oh boy, (or girl for that matter) was I wrong!
Immediately after I found out I was pregnant all my weird symptoms began to add up to something that made sense and rather than having 9 months of blissful waiting (as I naively thought one has), I've been given 9 months of active preparing and coping. It's funny, I never even thought of the impact that the baby would have on me, my health, my emotions, and my day to day life before I could physically hold it in my hands, but the reality of the situation is that this baby inside of me is impacting almost everything I do... and it's not just because I go to the restroom like 1,000 times a day, that I'm insatiably hungry, or that I can go from fine to incredibly nauseous in 2.2 seconds!
Pregnancy is an interesting time. God uses it to get us ready for what is ahead, and to show us things that we need to learn while there's still a little bit of quiet around. It has taught my husband how to care for me, and give me more grace...these days I need a LOT of it. It has taught us how to communicate better, it has taught me to be patient and trust God, for He is the one weaving the life in me. My sister calls everyday and says "what are you doing" and I've begun to give the answer "gestating" I'm being emotionally formed into the mother that God wants me to be for this child, and while I am carrying this baby, He is the one who is growing it, creating it, and giving it the very fabric that it will carry in its body. Isn't it a miracle?
Immediately after I found out I was pregnant all my weird symptoms began to add up to something that made sense and rather than having 9 months of blissful waiting (as I naively thought one has), I've been given 9 months of active preparing and coping. It's funny, I never even thought of the impact that the baby would have on me, my health, my emotions, and my day to day life before I could physically hold it in my hands, but the reality of the situation is that this baby inside of me is impacting almost everything I do... and it's not just because I go to the restroom like 1,000 times a day, that I'm insatiably hungry, or that I can go from fine to incredibly nauseous in 2.2 seconds!
Pregnancy is an interesting time. God uses it to get us ready for what is ahead, and to show us things that we need to learn while there's still a little bit of quiet around. It has taught my husband how to care for me, and give me more grace...these days I need a LOT of it. It has taught us how to communicate better, it has taught me to be patient and trust God, for He is the one weaving the life in me. My sister calls everyday and says "what are you doing" and I've begun to give the answer "gestating" I'm being emotionally formed into the mother that God wants me to be for this child, and while I am carrying this baby, He is the one who is growing it, creating it, and giving it the very fabric that it will carry in its body. Isn't it a miracle?
Welcome to While He Was Sleeping
I've always wanted to start a blog, and a few months ago I did. However, it wasn't really going anywhere. I was overwhelmed with being pregnant, and really didn't seem to have enough time to even begin to put things into writing. Mostly, I spent 10 months yearning for sleep and praying that I would be healed from whatever ailment was plaguing me that day. So, now that my little guy, Bubba, as we affectionately call him has been born and is adjusting to life, I am excited to be able to launch a new blog, one that I will try to keep more current, particularly during naptime. Hence, the name "While He Was Sleeping..." and the url www. pleasetakeanap.blogspot.com
Bubba is not a very good napper. Well, either that or I'm just not very good at getting him to nap. Either way, most days I wind up asking him, "Honey, please take a nap?!" Of course, he's only a newborn and has no idea what I'm saying. However, that doesn't stop me from talking to him about it and then promptly discussing it with the dog when he doesn't comply. Poor doggie, she hears me complain about stuff all the time. Good thing she gets lots of cookies, and thank God for the dog, it evens out the numbers around here. Two boys, two girls, the dog keeps me sane. Ok, enough about the dog... though she is cute and loves this baby.
So, my hope for this blog is that I'll be able to write about some things that you can relate to, and that I need to get off my chest. I hope that I'll be able to chronicle victories and milestones, and of course post some pictures of my little bubba (and of course, the dog who we now refer to as "the general" as she seems to supervise all interactions with the baby).
I'm going to post some of the old stuff about the pregnancy that I already wrote, but of course that is well over now and while I love the product, I'm not a very good pregnant lady... it was definitely a challenge for me.
Happy reading! I'd love your comments, and feel free to pass this along to anyone who you think might be interested. I'm taking the plunge and going public.
Bubba is not a very good napper. Well, either that or I'm just not very good at getting him to nap. Either way, most days I wind up asking him, "Honey, please take a nap?!" Of course, he's only a newborn and has no idea what I'm saying. However, that doesn't stop me from talking to him about it and then promptly discussing it with the dog when he doesn't comply. Poor doggie, she hears me complain about stuff all the time. Good thing she gets lots of cookies, and thank God for the dog, it evens out the numbers around here. Two boys, two girls, the dog keeps me sane. Ok, enough about the dog... though she is cute and loves this baby.
So, my hope for this blog is that I'll be able to write about some things that you can relate to, and that I need to get off my chest. I hope that I'll be able to chronicle victories and milestones, and of course post some pictures of my little bubba (and of course, the dog who we now refer to as "the general" as she seems to supervise all interactions with the baby).
I'm going to post some of the old stuff about the pregnancy that I already wrote, but of course that is well over now and while I love the product, I'm not a very good pregnant lady... it was definitely a challenge for me.
Happy reading! I'd love your comments, and feel free to pass this along to anyone who you think might be interested. I'm taking the plunge and going public.
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